Fears and compulsions have vanished, and my self-confidence has returned.
Kadri (33)
Before therapy, I had several mental health issues: overthinking, anxiety disorders, panic attacks, and extreme insecurities. An overactive mind and childhood insecurities were probably the biggest concerns. Fear and obsessions were my daily companions.
I was unable to concentrate on anything and struggled to sleep because my mind was constantly overthinking and worrying. My insecurities prevented me from getting along with my husband’s daughter—I was like a jealous child, stuck in my own childhood when I lost my parents’ attention to my brother. I constantly felt a sense of tension, discomfort, and anxiety. I was extremely irritable, in a negative mood, and could sense that I was developing depression.
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To put it bluntly, the situation was very bad.
I first encountered MER Biofeedback® therapy when I went to pick up a family member who was undergoing treatment. I was kindly invited into the therapy room to see what was being done there. As soon as I sat down, I started receiving information about the therapy, which immediately caught my attention. I clearly remembered the phrase, “think of this process as cleaning your internal memory stick.” At that moment, I was in a complete mess with myself and my life, primarily due to childhood and past traumas.
The whole concept of this therapy seemed too good to be true, but I had to try it.
During the therapy session, I didn’t feel anything particularly special. At times, I felt drowsy, and it was difficult to form sentences. I especially experienced this when dealing with certain compulsions and emotions that deeply affected me. After the first therapy session, I rushed home and remained completely silent the whole day. I didn’t want to speak or think about anything. I wanted to be alone, in silence and peace. After the next two sessions, I no longer felt such fatigue, and the subsequent therapy sessions carefully smoothed out the remaining rough edges.
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After the first therapy session, I felt an unfamiliar emptiness inside me.
Where had my inner tension and anguish gone? What about the fear and obsessive thoughts? Strangely, they had disappeared! The next day, they were still gone, but throughout the day, various painful emotions surfaced—almost as if all the excess negativity was making itself known one last time.
Gradually, as I continued with the therapy sessions, I noticed there was more space in my mind, and it was no longer overthinking uncontrollably. I didn’t get upset as easily and didn’t worry as desperately about everything. My fears and compulsions had vanished.
My overall sense of well-being had improved imperceptibly. What’s particularly wonderful is that for the first few months after therapy, I slept like a baby. Nowadays, I get along very well with my husband’s daughter; the jealousy born of insecurity has finally left me.
About six months have passed since I began my therapy journey, and much has changed in my life. However, I know I still have a long way to go. Nothing can be fixed instantly or on its own. But this type of therapy is a fantastic support, giving you the opportunity to see yourself and your life clearly, without emotional turmoil.