Veronika Allas

When I moved to Tallinn in 2006 after graduating from high school, I had a plan – university, job, family, etc., quite similar to that of many others.

I began studying economics at university in 2006, but it soon became clear that it wasn’t the right fit for me. After a few years, I switched to recreation management at Tallinn

University, graduating in 2014. I completed the ‘Year for Yourself’ course at the Holistika Institute in 2020 and began studying holistic regression therapy there in 2021. Professionally, I have spent many years in sales. Most recently, I was a partner relationship manager at Inbank AS for nine years. It was during these years that I honed my ability to communicate with and understand people beyond what is visible and audible.

Reflecting on my life, I see that I have always had a deep inner world and strong intuition. As a child, I was quite the chatterbox, often voicing thoughts that adults harboured but remained unspoken. My engagement with the concept that thoughts have the power to shape the future began in 2008 after watching the influential film ‘The Secret.’ I embraced the law of attraction, spending years reading books, watching videos, and attending workshops and seminars. The theory seemed simple – think it, and you shall receive. However, my reality and external world remained unchanged.

By mid-2019, I had to admit to myself that I was in a deep, long-standing depression. This led me to discover the Holistika Institute and the ‘Year for Yourself’ course. Beyond the law of attraction, the Institute provided me with the realisation that the power to change my life was in my own hands. Studying at the Holistika Institute marked a new beginning in my life. I plunged into the world of self-discovery, unearthing many unresolved aspects of myself.

The more knowledge I acquired, the clearer my self-image became, and the more issues emerged that needed addressing. This only strengthened my desire to change. Despite my determination, my daily behaviour patterns and habits meant that the change remained merely a desire. The thoughts were there, the desire was present, but my physical body did not follow, as years of ingrained automatic programmes continued to drive my old thoughts and feelings.

Over the years, I have engaged in various therapies: holistic regression therapy, transformative breathing, EFT, constellation therapy, and MER Biofeedback® therapy. Based on my experience, I can affirm that all these therapies are equally beneficial, complement each other, and aid in self-understanding.

Through MER Biofeedback® therapy, I realised that many aspects of our behaviour boil down to the automatic programmes operating within us. What I appreciate most about MER Biofeedback® therapy is that it allows for the disconnection of learned automatic programmes, i.e., the cause-and-effect relationships of thought-feeling-behaviour, enabling conscious changes. This therapy does not absolve one of responsibility for their own life, nor does it directly change behaviour patterns or thought processes. However, it creates space for new habits of thought, feeling, and behaviour to develop. After the therapy sessions, I experienced clarity of thought, purified emotions, and energy released from previously blocked areas, offering me the opportunity to start afresh as if with a clean slate and to create a different reality than before.

I have come to understand that it is not possible to completely “resolve” all issues. There is no finish line to cross for happiness and contentment to endure for the rest of our lives. We are social beings, interacting daily with numerous people and situations that influence and trigger us. This brings me to a crucial point—how to maintain or achieve inner contentment and balance amidst chaos and turmoil? How to honour and value ourselves when past choices bring pain and regret? How to remain genuinely loving and kind-hearted when disappointments threaten to harden us? How to maintain enthusiasm for life when loneliness occasionally overwhelms?

I am not “enlightened”, a guru, or a wonder woman who knows and can do everything. I am merely a person who has navigated through depression and two burnouts without the aid of medication or other substances. By practicing the solutions I’ve mentioned, consistently expressing gratitude, being honest with myself and others, and consciously altering my old patterns of behaviour and emotion, I have reached a phase where enjoyable and joyful days outnumber the others. I wouldn’t trade this for anything, for as time passes, life becomes increasingly enjoyable.