Angelika Randjärv

Angelika is a co-owner and CEO of Lifekeskus, as well as a therapist.

Reaching MER Biofeedback® therapy has been a journey shaped by personal and professional experiences. Everything prior was an essential part of this journey, and with gratitude, I realise that I have reached a profession which I always knew in my heart was destined for me.

Since my teenage years, I have had a deep interest in the nature of human beings, their psyche, and the accompanying mysteries. From childhood, it was natural for me to observe people and try to make sense of their behaviour. It was only natural that I pursued fields of study directly or indirectly related to improving people’s well-being and quality of life. In 2005, I obtained a BA in Special Pedagogy from Tallinn University, a degree in Social Work Management from the University of Tartu’s Pärnu College in 2012, and a qualification as a nutrition counsellor from the Public Health Academy in 2019. Upon discovering MER Biofeedback® therapy, I realised that all my previous experiences had ideally prepared me to become a therapist in this field.

Professionally, I have worked with children of various ages and adults, serving as a special education teacher in educational institutions, a child protection specialist in local government, and a nutrition counsellor and training manager in the private sector. These experiences have significantly deepened my interest in human psychology. It was a rather classic journey—the more I experienced, the more mystical human nature seemed to me. Driven by curiosity, I transitioned from one field of study to another, eager to explore different facets of life and deepen my understanding of what it means to be human. And to be myself.

There was a period when I was confronted daily with people’s severe problems in my work environment. During this time, I began to notice how something in my inner world seemed to continually turn down the colours, slowly but surely. I let this go on for a while until eventually, the internal picture was quite bleak. As a young professional, I was burnt out, often feeling powerless and hopeless. To help myself, I started with physical activity and relaxation, but at the same time, I was greatly interested in various spiritual practices. On this journey, I explored quite a bit. I started practicing Kriya Hatha Yoga and attended introductory courses in various therapies to gain knowledge through different approaches.

How I learned to perceive life differently

Years ago, before reaching MER Biofeedback® therapy, I was at a point in my personal life, in addition to professional burnout, where I woke up in shock amid a series of painful losses. My instinctive main questions during this period were: “What is actually going on here? And why is this happening to me?” Initially, there was quite a bit of victimhood and non-acceptance, but this was followed by the realisation that I had finally had enough of certain feelings, viewpoints, and self-perceptions. Looking in the mirror was a painful place to be, but only then was I ready for it.

I had several wonderful companions at that moment, and true change in my inner world began when I truly understood that everything depended on my interpretation of my experiences. But before that, it was necessary to become aware of the thought patterns and emotions through which I created suffering for myself. One of these companions was MER Biofeedback® therapy therapist Ülle Toomeoja. By undergoing therapy systematically and making other positive changes in my life at the same time, I began to perceive human existence and life itself quite differently compared to before. When the opportunity arose to train as a therapist in this field, I had by that time developed the necessary readiness and a strong desire to also support others through MER Biofeedback® therapy.

What I enjoy today

I dedicate myself with great joy to other people, out of love for them. Therefore, my best moments are undoubtedly sharing life as a fellow traveller in the therapy room or with close personal friends. Being amidst the Lifekeskus team, I have learned to laugh wholeheartedly again and to notice humour and laughter wherever possible. I enjoy my rediscovered playful nature and let it manifest itself. To maintain this balance, I still need time to retreat, to immerse myself in music, books, lectures, and to devote time to meditation and movement.

I am the mother of a wonderful young man, and recognising his daily activities and choices fills me with immense gratitude. His sense of humour, keen insight, and eloquence bring me great joy and inspiration.

Being in nature is undoubtedly the most natural and familiar setting for me. I take pleasure in observing the various signs and rhythms of nature up close—magnificent plants and elusive animals. Their constant adaptation and response to their surroundings. Capturing these moments on camera is equally exciting. Besides exploring Estonia’s nature, discovering other countries and cultures is also an annual “treat”.

As a therapist, witnessing the gradual changes in a person’s inner and outer worlds as a fellow traveller is an enriching and inspiring privilege. Experiencing the vast amounts of courage and inner strength in my fellow travellers reaffirms my belief. Internally, I truly feel I have the most remarkable job, one that is difficult to even describe as work.

As you navigate through life, be gentle and kind to yourself, knowing that you are doing your best at every moment. Nothing is inherently good or bad; it simply was or is. Let it go to experience more.