Anxiety disorders and panic attacks disappear, joy in life returns
Kadi (42)
Suddenly, I developed anxiety disorders accompanied by panic attacks. I felt as if I was about to collapse or faint. My thoughts froze, and I couldn’t speak. I was also frightened by numbness in my hands, legs, fingers, and toes. I was terrified!
I went to the doctor and underwent all possible examinations. However, no physical reasons were found for my symptoms. Left alone with my anxiety disorder, I started looking for solutions myself.
I suppose my anxiety disorders arose from long-term exhaustion.
I had many responsibilities and wanted to be a good wife to my husband and a capable mother to my children. I had no time to think about myself. Everyone needed something from me, and I fulfilled their wishes. I lived for others.
Eventually, I hit rock bottom—I was prostrate and unable to work. I was let go from my job, which was understandable given my condition. I started looking for help through various therapies.
Talking about my anxiety disorder made the symptoms worse, so I started avoiding talking about it and no longer shared my worries with family or friends.
As time went on, it got increasingly unpleasant. Apathy and depression set in.
I couldn’t get out of bed and didn’t want to do anything. I felt hopeless, thinking that nothing and no one could help me anymore. The situation had reached a point where I didn’t dare leave the house because I feared collapsing. I had lost my inner strength and desire to do anything. I was constantly afraid of collapsing and fainting. All sorts of thoughts swirled in my head, I even began to fear death.
Then a friend suggested I try MER Biofeedback® therapy. I was told I didn’t have to talk about my anxiety disorder or feelings. This suited me.
At the start of therapy, the therapist said they would balance my negative obsessive thoughts, or programs, using the device. They called this “cleaning the memory stick.” It was necessary so that new positive thoughts could emerge to help me move forward in life.
I understood that we are creators and it is up to us whether we create hell or paradise from our lives!
After the first therapy session, as I was leaving the therapy office, I felt that I no longer had fearful thoughts!
The anxiety was gone! I got into my car and didn’t dwell on any thoughts. I felt only peace. I had been waiting for this feeling for a long time. I rejoiced and thought, finally! It gave me energy and inner strength to start bringing changes into my life. I wanted to do something and that was a big achievement for me!
I started with simple things. I got out of bed and began cleaning. It was an act of self-overcoming and a big achievement for me. When I had finished cleaning, I felt proud—I had managed!
Day by day, I felt my strength growing. I dared to go out among people. I started cooking, taking an interest in various things, reading, and more. I felt joy and was proud of my small achievements. My self-esteem increased daily.
The next time I went to therapy was two months later.
After the second therapy, I felt that I had more energy, inner peace, strength, confidence, and an interest in doing various activities and even learning new things.
The desire to act was back. I attended different courses and met new and interesting people. I engaged in self-development and found like-minded individuals who became friends. We meditated together twice a week, and afterwards, we would spend a few hours in a café. It was supportive, and we had so many positive things to talk about and lots of laughs. We took ourselves and life lightly.
I let go of old acquaintances, realising that I no longer wanted to be with them. Listening to them didn’t help me or them, and I didn’t want to hear their problems anymore. I told them, “Why do you complain? Deal with your issues, find hobbies, and discover joy in life!” I realised they didn’t want to do anything and had no desire to change their lives.
I also started walking every evening, covering about 5 to 7 kilometres. I chose a sports track at the edge of Nõmme forest as my walking route. It became a habit for me. Walking relaxed my mind and eased my tensions, leaving me refreshed. After a walk, I always had a good night’s sleep.
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I directed my thoughts towards self-development and had many activities.
My days were full of exciting activities. Cooking has become my hobby and pleasure. I made new and exotic dishes and invited my new friends over, sharing my newfound passion for cooking. We established that every Thursday was a food enjoyment day. We visited each other, bringing along exciting dishes. Later, we called Thursday the “pleasure of taste day.” We allowed ourselves everything, even cakes and pies, without worrying about our weight. Once a week, indulging in food won’t harm your health. On the contrary, food enjoyment brings joy.
I went to therapy for the third time, and after three sessions, I can confidently say that I have overcome my anxiety disorders. I have found new areas that interest and excite me. Additionally, I have found supportive and encouraging friends. I have rediscovered my hobbies, joys, and pleasures.
My life has completely changed, and I am grateful for it!
I recommend MER Biofeedback® therapy not only for anxiety disorders, but to anyone who has lost the joy of living or wants changes in their life.